[>jessica<]

i feel exactly the same...im 17 and have had these attacks since i watched my grandmother die in hospital...just watchin the heart monitor knowing her heart is goin to stop any minute n i coudnt do anything to stop it or help her...she was dieing just as i knew from then just like i will

since that night i have had attacks when i think of death..i go deep into an attack and my skin feels cold like its not mine and m head goes blank just thinkin about me an old woman one minute away from death...then i think it is goin to happen n i go into a mad attack

i hate them and get scared to go sleep on my own because i know i will get one...i recently fell back on my A-level work because i felt so down i couldnt concentrate about anything but how to acept death

i do to try not think about it but it just happens...everything reminds me of it...expesh old people and there every where...and birthdays to me are not a thing to celebrate..it just one step further to diein to me like u x x

[johnnyb09]

Hi I'm new to this forum but not new to anxiety. For about 6 weeks I feared I was gay. Then for over a year I was stress free. However, my homosexuality fears soon came back but in a very manageable way. These past 6 weeks though have been terrible. For two weeks I thought I had a brain tumor that would kill me. For the past 4 weeks I have feared what happens after I die. I do encounter all my fears in very different ways. When I started fearing I was gay it all began with my friends comment on how she thinks I'm gay. That was untrue. My fear of brain tumors arose when I was googling what could be the cause of my headaches. My fear of what happens when you die began when some kid said when we die we cease to exist. I have been to two doctors who say I don't have ocd because I don't have the compulsions and stuff. However, I'm aware that you don't need to have the compulsions. I can't stop thinking about what happens when I die. I don't get panic attacks nor do I struggle to sleep(I'm very sorry to those who do and I'm here to help whenever I can) but still my grades are terrible and I'm very antisocial because I don't want to ruin people's lives with my problems. I don't see how I can be happy knowing that I will someday die to possibly nothing and I feel like I have ruined my life.

[race-demon]

[quote=johnnyb09]However, I'm aware that you don't need to have the compulsions. I can't stop thinking about what happens when I die. I don't get panic attacks [quote]
seems you have necrophobia but not to the point of panic attacks or near panic attacks

[race-demon]

ive been beeter and worse lately, sometimes not sleeping for hours and being a ibit in the middle, other times being ok, watched fight club the other night and theres a part where tyler says "you have to accept that your gunna die" and i know hes doing a chemical burn on himself, that isnt my point, its just i think we all waste so much of our time about thinking when our times up (like the egyptians) god i hate wasting time.