Hi new member here

Hi, just found this site and had a read of some of the posts, and found my self crying with relief that i'm not a total loony and if i am i am in good company hahahaha. i am 29 and am married with 2 children. i have suffered with panic attacks since i can remember, my husband is a wonerful man and he is there for me but its hard to explain the way i feel to someone who has no experience of what i am going through. at the moment i am having trouble with slight breathlessness, i am a proffesional singer and had 2 years off work and have now returned into the smokey clubs, which is probably the reason my chest is a bit dodgy i can tell myself and everybody else this but............ ... myself wont believe me!! i am absolutely terrified i think i have lung cancer or heart failure i'm constantly taking my pulse checking i still have colour in my face asking my friends and family if i look o.k! i have a crushing feeling that i am gonna die a slow and painful death that my family will have to go through the pain and trauma of it too. i am going to have tests done to check i am o.k but i know even when i am told everything is fine i will still worry and fret. i feel like i am going mad, and its not like i havent been here before! it doesnt seem to matter how many episodes i have i just cant control the panic and fear! i am glad i have found this site and hope someone is going to reassure me that what i have just written is normal and this time i havent really gone mad!

Hi Cairen

Since 1999 when I had my first panic attack, I have (in my mind) had every form of cancer in existence - and probably some that aren't. I have a constant fear of heart failure or that there's something seriously wrong with my lungs. Every time I get a twinge in my arm or leg it's in indication of some serious disease that will eventually lead to a painful death.

I assure you, you are not alone.

Chris

Thanks for that chris, i seriously feel better coming on here and reading other peoples experiences, its kind of a cure in itself hahahahaha. I'm under no illusion thats its all gonna go away just because i know i'm not on my own but it really does make it easier. Thanks again Cairen.x

welcome to the site!
Im agoraphobic and i think i have health anxiety. although ive not been diagnosed for that. i go through fazes, once it was neck pains, months of pain, spasms, twitches etc, now its my legs! i dont move around alot as im housebound so i think im stiff! but im convinced its some form of cancer or unknown disease, or worse, a known disease! i hate dr's and hospitals, so i fear getting ill incase i have to leave home and be hospitalised!
Its a horrid cycle.
Becci x