willy1stop
30-09-08, 01:59 PM
hi there,my names will and i jus wanna share what ive experienced over the last few wks.it basically started when i went for a haircut few wks ago.i hadnt been feelin myself for atleast a wk b4 i kept gettin these weird sensations and i felt like i was slowly losin it i coudnt put my finger on what was goin on..was it somthing id ate a whole heap of thoughts were racing round my head.thought my wife and her sister were druggin me in a plan to get rid of me.anyway on the day of my haircut this feelin got stronger when i got there i walked in sat down and waited my turn i felt so on edge. the woman nat who usually cuts my hair who i have a great laugth with said hi and tried to talk to me, i couldnt even make eye contact let a lone talk as bye now i was feelin very strange.will your turn she said. i went and sat in the chair, bye now this feelin was so strong and powerfull like your anxious but times it by a thousand! as she talked i couldnt even look in the mirror i tried to talk bk but all that came out was deep croaky noise like a frog.bye now i had a full on cold sweat comin on i managed apeak at the mirror i looked like a ghost i had gone white pale white all i wanted to do was run out.i was thinkin how can i tell her to leave my hair even tho she had started if i run it will be embarrising. anyway i held out till she finished my hair walked home in total shock what the hell was goin on i now had this tight band feelin rnd my head real pressure that would not go away.got home didnt say a word to my wife ijus didnt wanna be here anymore. over the nxt couple of wks i kept thinkin im totally losin my grip on reality this was followed buy that powerfull feelin so strong im on the bed in tears.anyway my dad phoned me last wk askin how iwas doin when i jus broke down to him told him i was suicidal the thoughts iwas gettin he said it sounded like panic and anxiety attacks.i went to the docs and he confirmed this im now on propranolol.had another one sat the total feelin of goin mad followed bye that horrible horrible feelin.sorry to go on does anyone no how long this goes on for? jus want things to go bk to normal.cheers, will

