Keeping busy

I had the week off work which got me down, but when I'm in work I don't think my anxiety very much, I'm quite happy. I have breakfast and go to work, play snooker after work and have dinner, play games on the computer, & I go to sleep quite happy, but it's so hard to motivate yourself if you don't have to do things.

I went out for an early morning walk on Wednesday for 2 hours, but I still had the rest of the day to fill, I went to make a meal & I got a big steak knife out and all the memories of being scared of stabbing someone came back. I did the wrong thing and retreated to my room, but if I am really busy it doesn't get to me.

Rabidbadger is right, if these disdurbing thoughts scare you so much then it's against your core beliefs and you won't act on them.

Make a conscious effort to keep busy, read a book, find something you can enjoy doing, anything, it does work.

I have had the same problem your story helps me understand how I am not the only like that thanks for being open about it. I actually enjoy the week going to work being busy doing schoolwork etc. video games shooting pool but on the weekends they go by so slow for me and even when I try to do things I am always just looking at the clock. I actually feel more sociable sites like this and family have helped my anxiety come along way and I say this to all today I went to a carnival it was exciting and I went on two rides 7months ago I had problems being in a room crowded with my family members that loved me.
thanks for sharing I think I am going to try group counseling next.