Am i a total nut case??? help [sorry long one]

:( I am a sufferer or anxiety, panick attacks and depression. i have had panick attacks to a very severe stage. On one occassion when on holiday in crete i had food poisioning and was hospitalized. I panicked that much they tranqualized me to fly me home. Once back in the Uk i was able to eat again and started to put on weight. I have no idea what i was so scared of.

last year i had a miscarriage and had to have five months of counciling to help get over it even though i was only six weeks pregnant. This year i suffered with having to have another pregnancy terminated at five months due to the baby being anafalic [form of spina - bifica where the back of the head doesn't form] I felt like my whole world was falling in around me and all i could think was whats next. My axiety is the worst thing for me as the way i look at things is if something good happens then for some reason or another something will happen to runin it... f[eg first holiday with partner -i get food posioning, pregnacy-gets taken away from me twice!!, at 21 my dad died] and these are the things i focus on not the good things like the fact i have a loving partner, a home and much more. I have been on Mirtazapine for 5 months now [since pregnancy was terminated] and i am now looking at coming off them [following docs instruction] :o I really hope i can now get on with my life instead of putting things on hold just in case something bad happens.... its like i have a phobia of life... am i mad or is this just part of anxiety. ???? help:(

i dont think u have a phobia of life nor do i think your mad!!! these thoughts are just symptomatic of having tired nerves. 2 good books to try are "manage your mind " by gillian butler and tony hope (oxford university press) and "self help for your nerves" by claire weekes ((thorsons).

i read both of these a lot and they really do help you to deal with worries in a more rational way.

good luck

graham

Hi Graham thanks for the advise i will try the books and see if this helps

fingers crossed

Hi

I'm new to this forum - in fact it's the first forum I've joined. I have suffered anxiety for seven years and agoraphobia for a year.

I don't think you're mad and I don't think you have a generalised phobia of life.

One thing that us 'anxiety' sufferers are good at is looking at the future and thinking "I can't cope with anything." One thing we're not so good at is looking back and saying "Wow, look what I have coped with."

After what you say about the pregnancy and hospitalisation, it is little wonder you have anxieties and fear these things happening again. As for having to be tranquilised to fly home, I would have to be sedated to get into a taxi, never mind an aeroplane.

The only thing separating you from anybody else is how you react to your fears. They are fears that any sound-minded person would have, but other people may find different ways of coping with them. Some people get drunk, some people get violent, some people blame other people and, unfortunately, some people develop anxiety problems. You are certainly not alone.

Hope this helps
Chris