Anxiety and fear of abandonment

Hi everyone, does anyone else feel an acute fear of being left with no one in their lives? I have always gone through life keeping people at arms length but never really understanding why. Recently I have met someone who has been a great friend and who has helped me through some pretty tough times BUT my panic attacks are returning because i'm convinced she will see the real me and leave. The attacks started from nowhere but now they are back i am really struggling to keep a control on them. I have always suffered from very low self esteem and never have had a positive opinion of myself. I suppose the answer lies within and the sooner i can start believing in myself and my own uniqueness, the less of a struggle my life will be - easier said than done! Well now I know the answer to my own question i better start doing something about it ......... positive affirmations are a good place to start. Well this may not make much sense to anyone but I feel a whole lot better. Thanks everyone - Cx:)

I'm not sure that this is the same thing as what you are going through. I didn't use to be able to sit at home alone. I couldn't drive two blocks alone. I always had to have someone with me. I am doing much better now. I do fine as long as one of my "safety" people are in town and I can reach them if I have an attack. I think you are very right about the answer lying within yourself. You're off to a great start at recovery. Don't be afraid to tell people about what you're going through. The ones who love you will be there to support you and help you in any way you can. I think that would end alot of you fears. I think they will be more understanding than you expect. If you ever need to talk you are more than welcome to message me. I'll do what I can.
God Bless, Be Well