agoraphobic?

I have always suffered from mild anixety since I was a kid and was very isolated in high skool but I went to uni last year and things had gotton so bad at one point my mind was totally buzzing with thoughts and i was highly stressed that I ended up having an onset of a panic attack in the middle of the high street but i turned around and ran back to my car which prevented having a full blown attack.

Since then I'm always worried and very panicky when going out and about, especially if I walk i cant walk to far, or Ill take my bike, and when out of the village I cant walk to far from my car which is really bad.

The one thing that seems different from the what the rest of you have said I prefer being on my own when out and about out of the village, i dont know why.

I just want to go back to how I was but i feel that the thoughts r just going round in circles cos theres that constant thought of what if it happens again which means i constantly get this panicky anixous feeling even before im outside.

i want to get evaluated by a psychologist because there are other things that seem to be mentally challenging for that Im scared to bits that one day itll be so bad I wont have a choice but to end it all. I have been depressed, I get good days and bad days now. I wish my doctor would refer me but its annoying cos they think they know best, when my counscillor told me you yourself is the expert you just gota help yourself.

Hi HanGin

You asked a question in your post - what if it happens again?

What if it does happen again? You survived last time. What's the worst thing that will happen if it does happen again? You will be scared and it will be unpleasant but it won't hurt you and it won't be the end of the world.

I know how hard it is because I have the same thoughts but we have to confront them sometimes in order to build up a resistance to them.

Chris

Hey HanGin

I had a similar experience. I just got back from university. I had a panic attack in a lecture. Ever since then I feared having another on in a public place such as a classroom. I currently saw my doctor who referred me to a counselor. I kinda know what your feeling. I too am really afraid of having one again but its not all that bad. I've only had really 1.5 attacks in the last 3 weeks. First one was the worse, then the second one was more bearable.

As of today I have been reading this book called Anxiety and Panic Attacks Their Cause and Cure by Robert Handly. And let me tell you only 50 pages in and I think i have changed. They have educated me on anxiety and panic and have talked about one coping method. It is very interesting and I highly recommend it. Anyway I am kind of in a rush, I will keep an I on this thread.

I'll keep in touch

Phil