Ambur09
24-09-07, 07:09 AM
Hi, My name is Amber, and im 16 Years old (also new here)
Ever since about a month ago, i started having horrible panic Attacks were I cant breath, i freak out My heart starts raceing, i dont wuna leave the house I feel like im Dieing, I feel llike Nobody else Is going through this and So on,..I was a all around Party girl, always out late never home on time..Tones of friends..Now im a home body..Im even scared to leave home now..i dont like getting up cuz my heart gets All excited..I hate Car rides...And MY life is just living Heck.... my mom jsut took a temp job in a town Still in my Mo, But Its about 150 miles away from my safe zone.. Which im here writeing to you now actually, Nothing Is better..Im even more scared.... And were closer to a hopital then we were in my Old house, *about 5 miles away*....Im always feeling my pulse And scared soemthing will set me off I have been to alot of doctors and I had a heart monitor..that when off ALL the time...... I just dont no wat to do with my self, I hate this...My life is so messed up the doc gave me Heart pills...( I dont need cuz my heart already is slow sometimes..it will make it even slower)..and panic Medication...That i have not been taking cuz they sent me into the panic attacks.... But my problem is right now...That My chest is friggin tight i cant take deep Breaths..I feel like i need to keep burping and my throat fills Full of air...I no im mostly Freaking my self out but i cant help it...I'm someplace new..>away from my boyfrined Of 4 years... He used to always calm me down somehow...I'm scared my heart will stop..Or i wont be able to get enough air..Im constantly feeling my pulse like i said..I get dizzy I feel like Im not in reality...that im lookin at it from someplace else..It just Sucks..please tell me im not the only one Going through this...
Sorry This is So long..maybe u guys can give me advise To calm my self down that doesnt involve Any pills that will mess with my heart...I have never had this before untell now...nevr in my Life....( my panic attacks started in Augest..because of my job was so stressfull.Im 16 and was working in a nursing home..on a floor being the only kitchen aid in there on a ALL guys unit Getting Horrased and talked down to by mentaly Challanged guys...like as when i would ask them wat they would want extra to eat...I woud get rude comments like "you butt naked" or "you...baby" stuff to make u question...Are they guna act out and try to rape me... and they would throw stuff and get out of hand...and i would be scared they were going to come after me...ALSO....On the 4th of july..me my friends and 2 gus got into a REck...they were driving to fast and hit a pole, i was on the Drivers side, back and the pole hit on the passanger side, I jumped out of the car and Freaked out..I couldnt think straight and had a cuncussion..not to ention 2 HUGE bruses on my sides..But i didtn have my seat belt on so i have no idea wat they were from.... I didnt go to the doc for them..and they eventually went away.... could that have anything to do with it? i have been to Big hospitals To see good doctors, And they told me nothing was really wrong But there is..Im not the Fun..outgoing Immature.....amber I was...
Please HELP!!!!!
Ever since about a month ago, i started having horrible panic Attacks were I cant breath, i freak out My heart starts raceing, i dont wuna leave the house I feel like im Dieing, I feel llike Nobody else Is going through this and So on,..I was a all around Party girl, always out late never home on time..Tones of friends..Now im a home body..Im even scared to leave home now..i dont like getting up cuz my heart gets All excited..I hate Car rides...And MY life is just living Heck.... my mom jsut took a temp job in a town Still in my Mo, But Its about 150 miles away from my safe zone.. Which im here writeing to you now actually, Nothing Is better..Im even more scared.... And were closer to a hopital then we were in my Old house, *about 5 miles away*....Im always feeling my pulse And scared soemthing will set me off I have been to alot of doctors and I had a heart monitor..that when off ALL the time...... I just dont no wat to do with my self, I hate this...My life is so messed up the doc gave me Heart pills...( I dont need cuz my heart already is slow sometimes..it will make it even slower)..and panic Medication...That i have not been taking cuz they sent me into the panic attacks.... But my problem is right now...That My chest is friggin tight i cant take deep Breaths..I feel like i need to keep burping and my throat fills Full of air...I no im mostly Freaking my self out but i cant help it...I'm someplace new..>away from my boyfrined Of 4 years... He used to always calm me down somehow...I'm scared my heart will stop..Or i wont be able to get enough air..Im constantly feeling my pulse like i said..I get dizzy I feel like Im not in reality...that im lookin at it from someplace else..It just Sucks..please tell me im not the only one Going through this...
Sorry This is So long..maybe u guys can give me advise To calm my self down that doesnt involve Any pills that will mess with my heart...I have never had this before untell now...nevr in my Life....( my panic attacks started in Augest..because of my job was so stressfull.Im 16 and was working in a nursing home..on a floor being the only kitchen aid in there on a ALL guys unit Getting Horrased and talked down to by mentaly Challanged guys...like as when i would ask them wat they would want extra to eat...I woud get rude comments like "you butt naked" or "you...baby" stuff to make u question...Are they guna act out and try to rape me... and they would throw stuff and get out of hand...and i would be scared they were going to come after me...ALSO....On the 4th of july..me my friends and 2 gus got into a REck...they were driving to fast and hit a pole, i was on the Drivers side, back and the pole hit on the passanger side, I jumped out of the car and Freaked out..I couldnt think straight and had a cuncussion..not to ention 2 HUGE bruses on my sides..But i didtn have my seat belt on so i have no idea wat they were from.... I didnt go to the doc for them..and they eventually went away.... could that have anything to do with it? i have been to Big hospitals To see good doctors, And they told me nothing was really wrong But there is..Im not the Fun..outgoing Immature.....amber I was...
Please HELP!!!!!
