I'm really scared.

This is all very new to me. I had my first panic attack a few months back and I have never been the same. I don't have fun anymore, I find laughing a challenge and I shut people out. I feel like I am under a microscope and going pretty much insane. It is so hard to get my thoughts to slow down long enough to be rational. I am really scared that I've lost myself. I remember when I used to love going out and meeting new people...now I'm terrified. I feel really alone in my head now. I hate it.

This is what Im feeling too, and Im very scared. I cant seem to do anything. I feel like I just can't get any help! What do you think we should do?

hume whats troubling you.how did this start.ive never had a good childlife and am always at war with my family.ive 2 children and when i had my son 7 months ago i became very depressed and started having panic attacks also.xx

what you said about being under a microsope...? Strangely enough, that makes sense to me. When you mean under a microscope, do you mean when you talk to someone you feel like they are watching you really intensly? I hear about being terrified to go outside and things like that, but do not quite understand this. When my attacks come on w/out warning, I am afraid of dying from the physical sensations or losing my mind. I don't have necessarily a terrorfying fear, or is what I just described a terryfying fear? I am new to this and am very curious as to why this is happening now, and out of the blue...any help would be appreciated.
thanks

hey you

well as the panic is new to you you will feel very limited as to what you will and wont do for the time being
but over time things will get easier for you !!!

I have suffered from panic disorder for 11 years and I know exactly what you are talking about. You need to take care of this before it takes control of your life. You are strong enough to beat this and I am here for you if you ever need to talk. You can e-mail me at cworley@nemr.net.
First thing you need to do is talk about it to your loved ones. Make it known. You aren't going crazy, far from it. It's confusing and very scary. Find someone you trust deeply and make yourself go out. You will start to enjoy your life again. As far as the racing thoughts. I have that too, it's very hard to get things to slow down long enough to make sense of anything. Try something claming like a warm bath, yoga works for me. Or even try listening to music, anything you find calming. Concentrate only on that. I am not a professional by any means but I think I've had every syptom that comes along with this damn disorder, lol. You just have to remeber YOU ARE IN CONTROL!!! YOU DECIDE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU!! Have your freinds and family help you. That support will be the best thing you have ever found. Again I assure you that you're not going crazy, even though it seems that way at times. YOU"RE STRONGER THAN THIS.I hope this helps you.
God Bless