Stopped by to say Hi

I was told i have panic disorder for over 4 years but I am still in disbelief about it. I chose at the time to take medication but got mixed results, I started have halucinations, so my doctor took me off it. I chose at the time not to further my bad luck with medications so I chose to do it naturally.. meaning I did nothing except to exerise and control what I ate. I did not avoid anything I went full force at all areas in my life. It was working for a while I still had the panic but i would take cleanings breaths, relaxed. and ran. It worked.. until recently. I could no longer control me. Sounds funny but it is what it is. I talked to other family members who have it meaning my older sister who is bi-polar. My family history is crazy sorry no pun intended. My grandmother was manic depressant, my father the same. I guess the bad jeans just got past from one parent to another, I now fear what my children will be when they are adults. I know this is not a blog but i needed to get this off me. Anyway, for to last week, I went to see my doctor but it was starting to control me and that was not any option. She put me on prozac and adivan. I still run but tonight I am having another panic attack. I took the adivan which is helping but making me feel like i want to sleep:) at least don't someone is choking me lol! i think i am long winded so sorry for the rambling it has help me.. go figure.. My name is Tina and I have panic disorder :(

ps i am a horrible at spelling so please mind my mess.

Hey Tina my name is Kim aint so good at the spelling either. I have been suffering from bad anxiety and panic attacks for about 2 yrs now. My mum and dad never had it but it didnt stop me. i know how you feel but talking here is really good to know others are going through the same and can give advise and somethimes speaking to ppl you dont know is a good break from thinking familly etc dont understand. Maybe it could be passed down your jeans not literately but as everyone says it is all in your head and to be honest it is yourself i have learnt that needs to push you through with help time to time from others. i thought at one point that this would never go away i had problems going to work even sometimes just to the shop or to town which was crap coz i love shopping. But i recently had a month off as i started taking anti depressants which didnt agree with me. So i stopped taking them. But since i have had a month off i have found a few things easier. Like i decided i would apply for college this year which scared the hell outta me. But when i got there sum guy was more scared than i am which made me more interested in how he was feeling than myself. Good tip when you start to panic is to do your times table. I was never any good at mine so trying to think of the answer really does take my mind off things. Maybe write your feelings down everyday could help them from building. x