caleb
10-03-05, 10:18 AM
Hallo everyone!
I thought I'd introduce myself properly as I come round these parts quite alot but don't post very often.
Anyways...
My name's Caleb, I'm 24 and I live in Bristol.
I was first diagnosed with what my doctor called an agitated depression about six years ago now, and am currently going through a pretty bad patch. I have been quite well for some years since I first got ill, (I somehow managed to graduate from uni a couple of years ago) but the panic attacks and agrophobia are pretty disabling at the moment and making even going to my local supermarket a huge ordeal.
It's just scary how bad things have got so quickly. Just six months ago I was definitely pretty anxious ALL THE TIME, but I wasn't having the full on panic attacks; I was able to sing live with my band, go to work without constantly worrying that I wouldn't make it through the day and be able to go out and get drunk with my friends without having to think about the hell-ish hangover to come or feel on the brink of a panic the whole time I was out and meant to be enjoying myself. I can't envisage myself doing any of those things now without feeling totally strung out at the prospect, although don't get me wrong, I still keep trying and have the inexplicably slightly more bearable day from time to time!
And can I just say how great forums like this are, especially when I'm at work, like I am now, and feeling like I need a bit of reassurance! I'm having to work a six day week instead of the usual three because my manager's ill, and I'm feeling very knackered already, as it's so draining to be so anxious all the time, as I'm sure you know. Sites like this are a bit of a lifeline sometimes!
Anyways, take care everyone!
I thought I'd introduce myself properly as I come round these parts quite alot but don't post very often.
Anyways...
My name's Caleb, I'm 24 and I live in Bristol.
I was first diagnosed with what my doctor called an agitated depression about six years ago now, and am currently going through a pretty bad patch. I have been quite well for some years since I first got ill, (I somehow managed to graduate from uni a couple of years ago) but the panic attacks and agrophobia are pretty disabling at the moment and making even going to my local supermarket a huge ordeal.
It's just scary how bad things have got so quickly. Just six months ago I was definitely pretty anxious ALL THE TIME, but I wasn't having the full on panic attacks; I was able to sing live with my band, go to work without constantly worrying that I wouldn't make it through the day and be able to go out and get drunk with my friends without having to think about the hell-ish hangover to come or feel on the brink of a panic the whole time I was out and meant to be enjoying myself. I can't envisage myself doing any of those things now without feeling totally strung out at the prospect, although don't get me wrong, I still keep trying and have the inexplicably slightly more bearable day from time to time!
And can I just say how great forums like this are, especially when I'm at work, like I am now, and feeling like I need a bit of reassurance! I'm having to work a six day week instead of the usual three because my manager's ill, and I'm feeling very knackered already, as it's so draining to be so anxious all the time, as I'm sure you know. Sites like this are a bit of a lifeline sometimes!
Anyways, take care everyone!
