Cry for help !

Hi everyone - I am new to this form of communication but i do hope a hand of friendship will reach out and help me. As with everyone, mine is a long story, but briefly I have over the last 18 months lost my home, my eldest daughter has left to live in Australia (for which I am immensly proud and happy for her) I had a health scare - but it was ok - but which completely knocked me sideways and for which i am still in an awful state of mind about - - lost my lovely cat and numerous other things. I have three other wonderful daughters, a supporting husband, but no-one understands this awful anxiety and panic with REAL physical symptoms of mind and body including me. To try and get through this is bad enough, but i am due to leave for Australia for 2 weeks on 14 Feb to visit my daughter. Wow you say - lucky you! and I know I am - but it is just proving a nightmare and this anxiety and panic has been creeping up for months and is here now full blown. I am not afraid of flying or anything like that, just afraid of everything it seems. I cannot sleep, eat, wake up sweating, heart pounding, panicking all over the place - dragging myself to do things, crying etc in a terrible state. I am going to Oz alone as it is not financial viable for my husband to come so this is adding to my anxiety. I feel silly and selfish, but although i have experienced panic and anxiety badly before, this is awful and i am a whisker away from pulling out altogether, which is upsetting my family and especially my daughter in Australia as they just want me to have a break and enjoy myself, but i am suffering turmoil and although i have the old diazepam it is not helping one bit. I am just at rock bottom and cannot seem to pick myself up. Just looking at my suitcase make me feel physically sick! PLEASE can someone help me understand my mind and what can i do to try and lift myself. The thought of being on the other side of the world in this state freaks me out and giving in to it and not going freaks me out too. There seems no-where to turn. Thanks for reading this everyone. R

Hi

Sorry to hear about your losses.

Have you spoken to your GP about your anxiety or about your planned trip to Oz? There are short-term solutions in the form of tranquilisers that you can take. I wouldn't recommend taking these long-term because they can be addictive but maybe they will get you through your trip?

There is also anti-depressant medication that you can take for anxiety but two weeks isn't really long enough for this to have an effect.

Chris

Hi Rosie

It sounds as though you have had an absolutely awful time just recently no wonder that you feel so lousy. I wish that there was a magic solution that i could offer you . I agree with Chris it would be well worth visiting your GP for advice regarding the trip, but try to be strong and keep telling yourself that Hey look what I have overcome, this unwelcome intruder in my life is not going to stop me having a fantastic trip to see my daughter,and you never know relaxing out there in the sun might just start you on the road to recovery.

Let us know how your trip goes, as I am sure you will be strong enough to do this.


Jayne

Hi Jayne

I wish i could put you in my suitcase and had your positive spirit! I really appreciate your words. I am just so frustrated at myself - i have seen my gp in the past and i get pills to calm me down but at the end of the day i think the solution lies within me. Something someone said to me today when i was so low was that i seem to have hit rock bottom - why not get on the plane and if i feel bad then just come back - no-one really minds in the end. Its very hard for anyone to understand this nightmare without having experienced it in some form or another and its nice to talk.

Thank you

Rosie

Hi Rosie

Your welcome to the advice ,I think you are right when you say the future lies within yourself. If you could have seen me last september I was a mess, I didnt get dressed for two weeks and couldnt even go out the house for about a month without getting in a state! Then realised the effect it was having on my ten year old son and thought I have to do this for him, your a mum you know you would do anything for your children. Its been hard but Im back at work part time because I know I cant let him down and im sure you will be the same.

Jayne x

PS I wouldnt mind a trip to Australis but dont think id fit in the case !